Theres a moment you know

Your fucked.

I experienced on of those today. To say the least, it has not been a good day

One of those days

This was just one of those days. Could never seem to get going. Stuck in a rut for most of the day.

Can’t wait for tomorrow. Hopefully I won’t feel so sluggish mañana.

Btw – I’m going to blame today on the movie 2012 . It was a total waste of my time.

Helpless

I hate that feeling.

About a week and a half ago by best friend, Nicole, calls me and tells me that they are taking her dad to the emergency room because he has blood in his urine. He had been to the doctors a few months earlier for the same problem. They diagnosed it, gave him some antibiotics, and it seemed to work. Until that Tuesday night when the blood came back.

I won’t forget that night for a few reasons. It was a laker playoff game. I was at a bat with some close friends of mine.I had a decent buzz. And when my girl Bff called to tell me what was going on, I felt helpless.

That feeling continued through all of the news we got: testing, scans, results, surgery, and recovery. I wanted to do so much more for Nicole. I wanted to take her away. Comfort her. Tell her everything was going to be alright. Even just bring her something to eat or drink. But none of that seemed like enough to me. I wanted to make the cancer go away.

Her dad had a tumor growing on his kidney. At the time of surgery they did not know if it had spread. We now know it is stage 3 cancer. The cancer has spread to tissue or organs in the immediate area of the kidneys. Not the news anyone wanted to hear.

So all I could do was try and be there for her. But all I could think about was the hell she must be going through and that killed me. Made me sad to think she was sad. I of course didn’t tell her that because I wanted to appear strong and let’s face it, this had nothing to do with me.

But there I was. Helpless. Not know exactly what to do.

The more things change, the more they don’t

Weekend was good. Friends, birthdays, concert, carnival, baseball, drinking, eating, and just plain old fun. Times are good. So why am I not?

It’s not that I’m sad or depressed. I just feel, well, anxious. Not sure why. But it’s bugging the hell out of me.

Once I figure it out I’ll be able to change things. I know I will because I’ve felt this way before. I was once married. I went through a dark time during that period. For some strange reason the feelings I’m feeling now is similiar to that dark period.

The good news is that it’s no where near as intense and I beat it last time. I will again

The more things change. The more they don’t.

Recession Proof Fun

If your looking for something to do with your family in these hard times that cheap and fun to do let introduce you to a novel idea: go to your friendly neighborhood park.

What’s that you say? “Who goes to parks anymore. Any ways my kid would rather stay home and play video games.” Well here’s my answer to that. Smart Families go to parks. It’s simple, cheap, potentially could get the whole family involved in an activty, gets kids outdoors, cheap, fun, no kids sitting on a couch staring at a T.V., different, cheap, and a great source of Vitamin D.

So if your looking for a good cheap way to entertain your kids and beat the recession blues head over your nearest park. Your tan will thank you.

Oh, did I mention it’s cheap?

Pretending to be religious

Why Is it that religious groups or people that think they are above everyone else.

Shouldn’t they be the humble ones? Shouldn’t they follow the rules the most?

I hate it when people hide behind a religion.

You just never know

Go ahead, give a hug. A high five. Tell someone special you love them. Tell your kids they did a good job. Say ‘thank you’. Go have coffee with a friend. Do the things you know you should.

Because anyone can be taken away. As shown today by the tragic death of Angels pitcher nick adenhart.

Anyone can be taken away. Dont ‘wish’ you could have said something.

Say it.

The weekends are fantastic

Ahhh the weekends. Since I now eat good during the week the weekends have a whole new meaning. Starting Friday night I eat what I want. I literally plan out what I am going to eat. This past weekend I ate five guys burger and fries, red brick pizza, BBQ carne asada/chicken, baby back ribs from Lucilles, and pancakes from the original pancake house. I love the weekends.

Saturday night was a perfect night seeing how I got to visit and chill with my best friend. Just a kick back kind of night that was perfect.

I also got to go to the movies with my son on Sunday. We saw 12 rounds starring John Cena. The movie was secondary to the fact that I got to have popcorn and hang out with my son.

Then my weekend fun continued monday. After work me and a couple of my co-workers headed to Disneyland for a couple of hours. We got to ride Space Mountain and Pirates. That was followed by having drinks in downtown L.A. at a very cool and chill bar called ‘Suede’. Its located at the Westin Boneventure. The atmosphere was very laid back and had a very cool jazz band playing. I went there for a friends birthday. I can’t wait to go back.

Parenting is harder than you think

Being a single dad of a 12 year old is not easy. And that’s putting it lightly.

My son is in 7th grade and failing 2 classes. I don’t exactly know how to handle that. I never got anything lower than a ‘C’.

I do take part of the blame. I have not been doing my best as a parent. As hard as that is to admit, it’s true. I have been working a lot of nights and been using this as an excuse to not be as involved as I should have been. That stops tonight.

I have told every kid I have worked with that getting a failing grade means that they are more lazy than them not being smart. I told my son the same. Just not as nicely as I told the other kids. When it’s your own kid at stake you treat them differently. You feel so much more responsible and sometimes that comes out as anger or frustration. Luckily this time around I did a better job than I have in the past at keeping that aspect under control.

I’m going to schedule a meeting with his teachers to see what we can do. I’m going to try and get my son to take pride in his grades and in everything he does. I’m going to be more involved in his schoolwork.

I can I just say this. I ran 2 miles tonight. It was a great stress reliever. You should try it out sometime.

I hate water

I don’t know about the rest of the country but growing up in los angeles county you tend to hear crazy things. For example I offered a friend of mine a bottle of arrowhead water. I was promptly turned down. Why you ask? Because ‘Arrowhead water tastes nasty’. Huh? Tastes nasty?! It’s water people.

I hate that.